Two years… with pretty good results
Today was my two year anniversary with my current employer. I know this because the man who is in charge of my division sent me an email. Who knew?
I honestly never thought I’d be in this position this long. This was the job I took because I needed a job. And I wasn’t very good at it. I was miserable at it for quite some time.
But today, I can honestly say I don’t hate it. And that has been a bit of a surprise to me this last week or so. I get really frustrated and annoyed and discouraged because in a lot of ways, the job is very mundane, always feeling behind the game. But, I no longer feel quite so overwhelmed, and I think I could be okay at this.
Earlier this week, a supervisor asked if an associate from another division could come and sit with me for a few hours to shadow me and see about how the job was done. Now, she said she picked me because I don’t curse (or at least I use very mild curses comparatively), but there are others who probably meet that description. I have to believe it’s because she and my supe believed I was doing well enough to give someone a reasonable overview.
Now, I know they do sometimes request things of me as a default because they know of my professional background. They can trust me to acknowledge the difficulties of the job while not presenting it only in a negative perspective. But still, I’m choosing to see this as positive.
But more than the work itself, I do still believe that God intends for me to be here. I’m frustrated on many days because I don’t have a lot of common ground with the people around me. I do miss being surrounded by women who shared my faith. But I know that I’m where I am for a reason. I know because I have too many people comment about how nice I am or how positive my attitude is, especially given how not nice I think I am or how lousy I think my attitude is some days.
I know because people continue to confide in me, things that I don’t necessarily want to know. I know because I keep having young girls (okay, women, but come on, at my age, 25 is a young girl) ask me for advice. I’m not big on giving advice, so I know they’re consciously seeking me out. And that can’t be by mistake.
And so, I stay where I am because I believe it’s where God wants me (you know, and to pay the mortgage and for the good health insurance). But today, on my two year anniversary, I’m really, exceptionally grateful that it’s getting easier.
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Yeah:)! What a blessing to know that you are where God wants you.
Even though that doesn’t always mean smooth sailin’ huh?:)
Thanks for participating!
Lizzie
This job has been anything but smooth sailing, and I’d be lying if I said that I didn’t want to quit every day for… well, a LONG time. But even on those days, I felt very certain that God wanted me there. I was quite annoyed with God, frankly, for putting me somewhere that I didn’t want to be. This isn’t my dream job… never will be. But thankfully, it’s better now. And I’m glad I stuck it out and stayed where I believed God wanted me.